This week marks the fifth and final yama! Hard to believe we're already through the yamas and will be moving onto the niyamas next week.For the final yama, we'll be covering Aparigraha, or the tenant of non-possessiveness. Aparigraha asks us to not cling to things of this world. The belief is that all things come and go and holding onto things will only lead to suffering. We are allowed to enjoy the pleasures of life and what we have in this moment but must do this without becoming attached. Only then can we be free to truly enjoy this life.
Welcome to a new year, 2018! It's hard to believe another year has passed, and for me, it's hard to believe all that's happened over the course of just 365 days. It's been one whirlwind of a year that's taken me from living and working in Boston, to moving to Iceland where I returned to school, and all the way over to Ireland. There are so many things I have to be grateful for looking back, all the opportunities and growth I've been afforded, and at times I still can't believe where I've ended up.
Today I want to talk a bit about meditation and dissociation. Recently, I had surgery done on my foot, which required me to be homebound for a week. Check out my last post for details. For the first few days I just rested, took things easy, and allowed my body the space it needed to heal. But, by the fifth day I started to get pretty sore and restless. Sitting on the couch for several days sounds nice but has consequences for our bodies and minds. So, on the fifth day, I decided to spend some time meditating and doing some mild, restorative yoga. My body desperately needed the movement and my mind needed the grounding and calm. However, something very interesting happened when I sat and began to calm my mind.
As I settled in to begin a guided mediation (shout out to Headspace!) and closed my eyes to turn my awareness inward, I noticed that my mind was going to be way more difficult to quiet than normal. The few days of going under sedation, having my foot cut open, sitting, and taking several medications left my mind feeling loose and floaty. The body-awareness I once had seemed to have disappeared.